Talk:Yui Komori/@comment-162.198.147.91-20150731225857

I did 2 masochist test on myself

 i wrote about actual abuses i   suffered from as a child growing up



Test 2

Testing to see if i am masochist by real abuses i suffered



being treated roughly by people

i cried and hated it

pleasurable feelings: i did not feel any



imagining being treated roughly by people

i enjoyed it and liked it

pleasurable feelings? yes



taking a shot by the doctor

i hated it 10 doctors had to hold me down to take the shot

pleasurable feelings? non i only felt extreme pain

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<p style="box-sizing:border-box;-webkit-font-smoothing:antialiased;font-size:27.2000007629395px;line-height:40.8000030517578px;margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;color:rgb(75,82,91);font-family:Lora;">imagining getting kicked in the side after the pain was over of it actually happening

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<p style="box-sizing:border-box;-webkit-font-smoothing:antialiased;font-size:27.2000007629395px;line-height:40.8000030517578px;margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;color:rgb(75,82,91);font-family:Lora;">liked or enjoyed it? it yes

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<p style="box-sizing:border-box;-webkit-font-smoothing:antialiased;font-size:27.2000007629395px;line-height:40.8000030517578px;margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;color:rgb(75,82,91);font-family:Lora;">only felt pain, cried and hated it

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<p style="box-sizing:border-box;-webkit-font-smoothing:antialiased;font-size:27.2000007629395px;line-height:40.8000030517578px;margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;color:rgb(75,82,91);font-family:Lora;">Imaging getting my hair pulled by mom

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<p style="box-sizing:border-box;-webkit-font-smoothing:antialiased;font-size:27.2000007629395px;line-height:40.8000030517578px;margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;color:rgb(75,82,91);font-family:Lora;">liked it? yes

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<p style="box-sizing:border-box;-webkit-font-smoothing:antialiased;font-size:27.2000007629395px;line-height:40.8000030517578px;margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;color:rgb(75,82,91);font-family:Lora;">getting hit, punched by parents, cousins or others

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<p style="box-sizing:border-box;-webkit-font-smoothing:antialiased;font-size:27.2000007629395px;line-height:40.8000030517578px;margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;color:rgb(75,82,91);font-family:Lora;">excited feelings? no

<p style="box-sizing:border-box;-webkit-font-smoothing:antialiased;font-size:27.2000007629395px;line-height:40.8000030517578px;margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;color:rgb(75,82,91);font-family:Lora;">cried? yep

<p style="box-sizing:border-box;-webkit-font-smoothing:antialiased;font-size:27.2000007629395px;line-height:40.8000030517578px;margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;color:rgb(75,82,91);font-family:Lora;">liked it? nope

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<p style="box-sizing:border-box;-webkit-font-smoothing:antialiased;font-size:27.2000007629395px;line-height:40.8000030517578px;margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;color:rgb(75,82,91);font-family:Lora;">imagining getting hit, slapped, punched

<p style="box-sizing:border-box;-webkit-font-smoothing:antialiased;font-size:27.2000007629395px;line-height:40.8000030517578px;margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;color:rgb(75,82,91);font-family:Lora;">pleasurable feelings? yes

<p style="box-sizing:border-box;-webkit-font-smoothing:antialiased;font-size:27.2000007629395px;line-height:40.8000030517578px;margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;color:rgb(75,82,91);font-family:Lora;">excited feeling? yes

<p style="box-sizing:border-box;-webkit-font-smoothing:antialiased;font-size:27.2000007629395px;line-height:40.8000030517578px;margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;color:rgb(75,82,91);font-family:Lora;">cried? a little

<p style="box-sizing:border-box;-webkit-font-smoothing:antialiased;font-size:27.2000007629395px;line-height:40.8000030517578px;margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;color:rgb(75,82,91);font-family:Lora;">lied it? yes

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<p style="box-sizing:border-box;-webkit-font-smoothing:antialiased;font-size:27.2000007629395px;line-height:40.8000030517578px;margin-top:0px;margin-bottom:0px;color:rgb(75,82,91);font-family:Lora;">during my masochist test i found out that i am only mentally masochist